“Boy, these conservatives are really something, aren’t they? They’re all in favor of the unborn. They will do anything for the unborn. But once you’re born, you’re on your own. Pro-life conservatives are obsessed with the fetus from conception to nine months. After that, they don’t want to know about you. They don’t want to hear from you. No nothing. No neonatal care, no day care, no head start, no school lunch, no food stamps, no welfare, no nothing. If you’re pre-born, you’re fine; if you’re preschool, you’re fucked.”—George Carlin (via setbabiesonfire)
Producers: these people execute or maintain a repeatable process. This can range from simple things like working on an inbound help desk and handling some transactional process, to more complex, like auditing the performance of a big system, writing code, or producing the monthly financial reports. Producers typically require training or advanced skills to be in a position to execute the process. To determine the appropriate Producer performance objectives, ask the hiring manager to define how any required skill is used on the job and how its success would be measured, e.g., “contact 15 new customers per week and have five agree to an onsite demonstration.“ This is a lot better than saying “the person must have 3-5 years of sales experience selling to sophisticated buyers of electro-mechanical control valves.”
Improvers: these people upgrade, change or make a repeatable process better. Managers are generally required to continually monitor and improve a process under their responsibility. Building, training and developing the team to implement a process is part of an Improver’s role. Improvers can be individual contributors or managers of teams and projects, the key is the focus on improving a existing system, business or process. A performance objective for an Improver could be “conduct a comprehensive process review of the wafer fab process to determine what it would take to improve end-to-end yield by 10%.”
Builders: these people take an idea from scratch and convert it into something tangible. This could be creating a new business, designing a complex new product, closing a big deal, or developing a new process. Entrepreneurs, inventors, turn-around executives, deal-makers, and project managers are typical jobs that emphasize the Builder component. Ask the hiring manager what big changes, new developments, big problems or major projects the person in the new job would need to address to determine the Builder component. An example might be, “lead the implementation of the new SAP supply change system over every business unit including international.” This is a lot better than saying “must have five years international logistics background and strong expertise with SAP.”
Thinkers: these people are the visionaries, strategists, intellects, and creators of the world, and every new idea starts with them. Their work covers new products, new business ideas, and different ways of doing everyday things. Ask hiring managers where the job requires thinking out-of-the-box or major problems to solve to develop the Thinker performance objectives. “Develop a totally new approach for reducing water usage by 50%,” is a lot better than saying “Must have 5-10 years of environmental engineering background including 3-5 years of wastewater management with a knack for creative solutions.”
power of holding together, tenacity, adhesion
strength, stubbornness, obstinacy, vigor, toughness, tenacity”—
source: Google translate. Because I suck at my own mother tongue.
But still though, these two words are the truth right now. Because all the meaning they now hold for me are thanks to my mother and our long conversation today. This is what we will strive for. The mother-daughter motto, all day, err-day :>
"Who am I" can be a pretty difficult question for anybody to answer. And when you have a mood disorder, you can never be sure that the "I" you describe today is as a result of just who you are as a person, or who you become due to your illness. Everything is, after all, distorted.
When you’re in the midst of a good patch you feel happy, positive, able to focus/think/plan for your future. And that’s great. That’s how I felt after graduating last spring. But what happens when you hit a depressive episode and you are suddenly incapable of even the most basic tasks? Hello September, Hello New York.
This is a source of great anxiety for me. I am afraid to commit to anything because, yeah sure I’m a star now, but I have no idea what will trigger the next meltdown. And I hate the idea of throwing myself into some amazing challenge only for it all to fall apart once that thick giant cloud of doom and gloom resumes it’s place on top of my head and turns me into a zombie.
And on the flip-side (especially for people with Bipolar Disorder who experience Hypomania) How many of you worry that your best achievements were due to your illness, and not your genuine disposition (whatever that may be)?
So how can you plan for anything, or make any decisions, when you don’t know who you will be tomorrow?
“Why is it so important that Martin Luther King Jr. consistently expresses respect for, and includes, his oppressors? For one, it demonstrates a penetrating understanding of human nature. Criticism doesn’t work as a tool of persuasion for a reason. People are afraid of their own guilt; it makes them uncomfortable and extremely defensive. You and I have seen this many times before. If you merely point out misdeeds, your audience will be guarded and deflective, less willing to accept blame. Moreover, they will strive to justify their wrong doings rather than looking at their actions objectively. Respect is necessary to open an audience’s eyes to the possibility of change. This is exactly the respect that Eve Ensler fails to extend to her audience in The Vagina Monologues.”—
Today I stopped, to some extent. I haven’t left my apartment since Friday and today (Sunday) I actually let myself stay under the bed covers, willfully shutting the sun out of my eyes until 3pm. I had to keep reminding myself to stop. Self-recrimination comes so easily to me I usually don’t even realize how badly I’m beating myself up until someone else points it out. And yes I felt like the laziest, least productive person on the planet but I was able to hold the self-blame at bay, for the most part. Which is quite the personal achievement considering I value myself almost entirely on what I perceive to be my usefulness to other people.
I have one more month in this city and you know what, I’m just going to stop kicking myself over and over again. I’m on holiday from myself. I’m going to read some books and take some walks and try my best not to feel guilty about it.
It’s ridiculous to me that I freak out about staying in the apartment all day (because that makes me a non-productive entity. For shame) and then I freak out about leaving the apartment because that means I have to come up with some actual task or errand or thing that I need to go out and accomplish so that I can convince myself I’m like any other normal active member of society.
Either way it’s lose-lose. Going out, staying in, it all feels pointless. Being this anxious about everything all the time is literally mentally and emotionally numbing.
So suck it, brain. I’m going to go outside tomorrow. And I don’t need to have a plan. I’m just going to put one foot in front of the other. Maybe I’ll have breakfast at a cafe I like the look of around 79th St. Maybe I’ll stroll through Central Park. Maybe I’ll enjoy an alcoholic beverage with my lunch. I don’t know. I don’t care. I’m going.
There’s this sentiment I sometimes sense, creeping in our collective conscious as we lay alone after a party, or pack up our books when we give in and go out – that it is somehow too late. That others are somehow ahead. More accomplished, more specialized. More on the path to somehow saving the world, somehow creating or inventing or improving. That it’s too late now to BEGIN a beginning and we must settle for continuance, for commencement.
What we have to remember is that we can still do anything. We can change our minds. We can start over. Get a post-bac or try writing for the first time. The notion that it’s too late to do anything is comical. It’s hilarious. We’re graduating college. We’re so young. We can’t, we MUST not lose this sense of possibility because in the end, it’s all we have.